My muse definition professional#

I am grateful for the time I was able to spend with her while she was still lucid enough to understand and talk with me. I was fortunate that my sister and I were by her side when she crossed over. She is facing a tough fight with breast cancer but I am rooting for her and want her to “Rise like a phoenix from the ashes.”

I want to make things that inspire people to remember that life is good and that there is hope. I want to make jewelry and artwork that is a tangible reminder that there is someone that believes in you and is sending good thoughts and prayers. Here is one that I made for my sister to act as a reminder that I love her. But as any Pollyanna wanna-be like me knows, sometimes it’s hard to look on the sunny side with rose colored glasses! Some of us need a little help. Not so much of a surprise huh?) “They” say that optimists live longer than the rest of us as if it’s simply a matter of waking up on the right side of the bed. This might come as a big surprise to some of you but I’m not a naturally optimistic person. I have more patience and understanding than I used to. I’m less concerned about what people think about me and I’m more interested in what I think about them. I want to be the “somebody” like in this photo-quote from. During her decline at a particularly difficult moment of miscommunication I said to her, “Mom, I don’t understand what you are trying to tell me, I don’t know what you want.” She responded with, “I’m trying to change your personality!!!!” Now at this point I’m thinking, good luck with that because I have been trying to change it for years without any luck! But the truth is, when I look back at the person I used to be, I have indeed changed my personality quite a bit. As many of you know the day after my last post, my mother had a massive stroke and I rushed to California on the first flight I could get. It’s been four months since my last blog post. But I just hope it works )Ĭopyright © Mary M. It’s also used to help one find their own path….My mom would have liked that….

The stone, white topaz, is said to help with clearing stagnant or negative energy, purify emotions and heal the soul. My way is to make it tangible, so the pendant below is titled “Solivagant.” It doesn’t matter who you are or how many others also grieve with you, in the end each of us deal with it in our own way. and I know that I was given the great gift of many bonus years to enjoy my mother, I almost lost her twice before…. Here’s a snippet from my journal that I wrote several years ago:Īt the time I knew I was feeling morose, but I just couldn’t get over it until I put the thoughts into writing, or perhaps it was the endorphins from dark chocolate kisses, who knows? What I do know is that my grief is a solitary emotion, a whisper, a nudge, a thought…. I knew that eventually this time in my life would come, I have know it for quite some time. but the echo of her voice doesn’t come back to me across the phone line. I believe that my mother is in a better place and I still talk to her…. It’s not the absence of happiness, it’s the absence of the person that was always there to share the ups and the downs. This is a loneliness that may always linger in the depth of my soul. Grief is like that, at least it is for me. Sometimes I can’t seem to shake it, or drown it out. This is the song that keeps playing in my mind. Photos from the yard inspire art journal pages that I never seem to finish and jewelry, that I usually finish…… nature even makes it’s way into my writing journal. and as children in the sixties (I know I’m dating myself) we listened to songs that told of the “birds and the bees and the flowers and the trees….” So the reality is that I am a nature girl and I’m inspired by nature things! Can I help it if it shows up in my art? My sister and friends and I escaped to play outside whenever possible…. I grew up fishing and gardening and catching butterflies down by the American River.

This is an answer that makes important artists roll their eyes because it’s pretty much the answer most new artists give, but nature has always been my go-to place to get out of my own head.

My muse definition professional#

(You know, that professional sounding answer, the one artists are supposed to have ready to spout off at any given moment….) The truth is that it doesn’t take much when I would almost always rather think about arty things than business, or housework, or politics or…. When asked what inspires me, I don’t usually have a quick answer.